but i've wanted to be a writer since fOREVER, in second grade, diary of a wimpy kid was all the rage, and i tried making my own. i found a notebook from forth grade with fanfiction (even though i didnt know it was called that at the time) for a game i was playing. last year, due to *wincing intensifies in volume* hetalia, i tried writing actual fanfiction. it didn't go well, and i actually ripped it out of my notebook and set it on fire.
and then i joined this fandom and started actually doing stuff.
like. stuff. i can't put it into words but you know the feel.
the 4000+ words i have written total? thats an achievement. that's a really big achievement for me.
i guess part of is that i'm writing something and it turned out like 20 pages long, and sTILL NOT FINISHED and then i had to cross out like 5 whole pages because they didn't really make sense and now i have no motivation whatsoever
You know, Kick, there are different kind of writer. I know some of them, published or not, who always have 10000 ideas and complains they don't have enough time to write all, because there are always more of them coming. And you have others (Hello, I'm on the second kind.) who have only one or two universes and don't know what they'll write after. You will have persons always writing, always always always, and it's not a proof of writing good. You'll also have persons who need special conditions to write and can't if they're not in these special conditions. Some of us will have rituals, some others not. Some of us are good in constructing universes, some others better with the characters, and nobody,
nobody is perfect and know how to use all in the same time.
You can't imagine... okay, you can imagine you'll write, I don't know, something like 100 pages easily. But writing is like everything : you have to practice. It requires time. It requires practice. And you'll become better, and better, and better. But be patient and kind with yourself
Some days it will be easy and wonderful, some others days you'll feel like the "most bad" writer possible. It's all right. We all know these feelings, and I'm sure it's the same for everybody who create. Be patient, try again, stop a few days if it really doesn't work, and to my mind, if the idea is important enough, it will stay in your mind and you'll come back to it. Always. (Look, I'm working again on what I began when I was 14
Because the characters are still here and want their stories to be told.)
And don't throw what you've done earlier. One day, you'll look at that, will grimace and smile in the same time and think "Okay, it's bad, but it was my best when I was (insert an age here) and it had helped me to become better today".
I swear I'm still feeling ashamed when I see the maybe 200 pages written when I was 14 and who have been read by some persons, including an adult. But without that, I wouldn't be where I am now in writing. And you'll could be proud of yourself
Oh, and look at this poster. It's exactly the process. I think I'll buy it...
https://behappy.me/poster/the-creative-process-1-this-is-awesome-2-this-is-tricky-3-this-is-shit-4-i-am-shit-5-this-might-be-o-85187
