I had a real shit of a day. I intended to talk with my mentor about her having many problems at present and seeming absent minded. Because of that I got the feeling, that assumed that she might stop practical training for a while until she had sorted out her private matters, so that people going through the practical training would not have to jump in constantly for her. At present, that's me. It is not nice to hear such a thing. But she felt really hurt and that was not what I intended. I clearly chose the wrong words and she told me it was all my fault. If I had only asked for mor assistance she would have given it. Also she stated, that she felt being pushed of from leading the class because I took so many lessons. What it comes down to is that both of us had not talked enough about our needs. We did not make clear what we felt was necessary for each of us for reaching pleasant teamwork. As both of us had not done right, I feel sad, that the fault should lie on my only. I'm always for talking things out. But I think it might have been better if I had swallowed my troubles for a few month, at least til after the exam. It makes me feel uncomfortable to make other people sad. Well, it cannot be made undone. We will have to work together for the next days. And after the christmas break we will have to talk thing out again. Time sometimes makes both sides sea thing more clearly.
Just had to put it somewhere to put some order into my thoughts.
