Okay, I have a feeling this is going to be a really long post, so sorry in advance about that.
I'm back!! I haven't been logged on in the forum or the chat for a week now, which... most of you probably never even noticed <_< Or, those who are active in the chat did. Maybe.
Anyway, I've had a lot of trouble with stress and tiredness and just generally feeling really awful these last few months, but it got progressively worse ever since Easter, and it showed in everything I did and said here during that time. Then last Sunday it just got to a point where I was really tired of logging in here only to feel bad about being such depressing company and also about not being more active. I'm usually a really cheerful person, so it felt
wrong to be in such a bad mood most of the time.
But this last week has been really good for me, and that's what I wanted to tell you about! A lot of great stuff happened, so I'm going to make a list
1) My chemistry teacher offered to spend 1 hour of her time every Thursday after school helping me catch up with all the stuff I've been missing in class. Technically we started doing this last week, but I'm putting it on the list anyway because it's really great and we've only done this twice but I've already caught up with an ENTIRE CHAPTER!!
(When it comes down to it I'm actually very smart, and she's helping me remember that)
2) I had my first driving lesson in at least 1.5 months. Not only did I suck it up and start learning to drive again even though I didn't like it at all, I also faced my fear of contacting people I don't know very well via phone in order to schedule the lesson. Yay!
3) More practice driving stuff. I drove with my dad for an hour this Thursday, and for the first time I actually felt in control! And the day after I drove all the way to my grandparents and back, and I think I might have actually enjoyed it??! This is great news because suddenly I don't feel the need to avoid practice driving anymore. I'm actually beginning to look forward to it
4) Me and my friend finally started planning our trip to Desucon (biggest convention in Norway, I think?) this summer. We booked a hotel room, ordered tickets and looked at train schedules. AND. Her parents offered to pay for the hotel!!
5) I had a chemistry test this Friday (not in the same subject I've been working on with my teacher), and for the first time in at least half a year I actually felt prepared. I haven't been able to study for more than like 15 minutes without getting distracted, but Thursday I just kind of sat down and studied for 3 hours straight??? And it was actually kind of fun?? And really it's just one test but it feels SO GOOD to finally be good at something again.
Heh. Sorry about all that text. The short version is that I've had a great week and I feel better than I have since last year. I also had art class this weekend and we made films with iPads and it was super fun!