I'm getting more and more pissed on whatever day I get mad. I'm keeping it in control enough, which is a definite improvement from years ago.
(Upcoming short rant, may become long, though)
It just seems that my sister cannot use headphones to listen to her music, or to watch YouTube videos. I swear she HAS HEADPHONES, but DOESN'T USE IT. What's the point of having those headphones in the first place if you're barely going to use it, with the exception of going to work and back, and certain days? It seems really dumb to me, honestly.
And she has like her PS Vita out, her phone, and some other device, all going through YouTube, and her saved videos. It's practically 11 at night, I'm trying to sleep (I wake up at 6 to get ready for school), and this person cannot simply use headphones around the presence of someone who's trying to sleep. I've been forcing myself to get used to it, I'm not the person who enjoys music on one side of the head when they're just trying to sleep. It's like as if I had not used headphones when my mom is sleeping right next to me. She usually has the TV on, which is normal for us. (And it's not directly within our ears, so it's fine.
I simply don't understand why someone cannot use a headphone when OBVIOUSLY you see someone TRYING TO SLEEP, OF ALL THINGS. That really pisses me off, and one time I remember that I was in that sleeping state of my mind being half-awake and half-asleep, with my body asleep, and overheard my mother and sister talking to each other, one of the topics was about me, and my sister said something, my mom scolding her about it. I'm not sure of what to think about anyone or anything anymore, I just want to crawl deeper inside my shell and not come out. I can't seem to trust my sister, I just don't know if I could. I just don't know. I'm extremely confused, it's like:
One day: She's kind of a dick to me
Another day: She's really nice
Later: She's just doing things that make my mom pissed, and then being nice to me, and then whatever happens after that, I don't want to even bother. I can't really predict what kind of a person she is, besides being incredibly picky (Like that one time she picked on me for my "informal" Korean while I was talking to a family member on the phone. HONESTLY, WHO CARES?! I'm sick of that behavior. You want to correct me, DO IT LATER, not when I'm ON THE PHONE. Jeez, picking the absolute wrong time to be a picky person.... on informal and formal verbs, OF ALL THINGS.)
I really don't know what to make of her, she had potential of being a nice, responsible person, but she's not the person to look up to, she literally hid empty bottles of soda all over the bedroom, yes, even tucked in a space between the bed and the wall, and gave herself two crowns needed, and since she's already past the age where they cover it, it's expensive, and not something anyone wants to have a run into to pay out of pocket, either...
I'm sorry if this seems like a first world problem, but I just need to let some of this out. I'm real tired of BS with just ONE PERSON. She can't even clean her own stuff, lord help her! At least she should be able to clean her own stuff! I don't get it!
... I really had to let it out. Sorry, guys.
I apologize if it seems like I'm being way too sensitive or getting angry at everything. It just happens all the time, and she doesn't take any initiative to fix ANYTHING, and that just.... ugh. Never mind....
