Highway spirits? Are those the ones on the sides of roads?
... I might have made acquaintances with them in this case.
When I was physically very, very ill, but still thought that it was 'only' something mental or, alternatively, that life really is that vile and disgusting and freaking
painful, I often saw or even heard things on the highway. Especially in places that had forest or bushy areas next to the road. But then, at that point I was having a variety of tinnitus, including the start of voices
In any case, these are some of the very few memories I have of that worst year.
Usually these things passed by in the blink of an eye and the creepy feeling lessened. However, there was one time when I had left the highway and drove on the fairly small road leading to our village. This road leads through several kilometers of forest that extends in all directions and it is a rare occurrence to meet another car during night time.
I was on edge, because things had started to creep into the road or move suddenly at the sides of the highway in the corner of my eye since my last visit home.
So I was extremely careful to watch for
actual hedgehogs, boars or deers wanting to cross the road.
I had sunk into that strangely removed feeling, that makes your body seem wooden and steals all sense from your skin, your flesh, your muscle - it was a day to day companion and even as I drew near the only crossing between the highway and my village and the feeling increased beyond the usual, I was not alarmed by it.
My thoughts had wandered to dark places and I was exhausted in a way that means you should definitely not be driving.
Then there suddenly was a young man in the middle of my lane. Looking right at me - somewhat expectantly.
I yanked the stirring wheel so hard, I almost swung off the road. As I turned my head and looked for the man, even in the motion, he was gone.
The shock had somehow dispelled some of the dissociative feeling and I was 'fine' for the rest of the drive.
I don't know if it is at all related, but about a kilometer prior to the crossing, a young man form a nearby village had crashed into a tree with his motorbike and died about a year ago. His parents still come to the place of his death now, more than four years later, and lighten a candle and lie down flowers every evening.
I haven't seen or heard anything on the road since. All the more not since getting healthier. Well, if you ignore the occasional feeling of queasiness, which I am sure everyone has to fight from time to time.